Last night at 22:15, as I was about to watch some TV, I felt the urge to eat. I was not hungry. It was a familiar compulsion. I looked at my hand and read STOP and carried on. I felt empowered. I drank some water and felt good.
32 years of that same compulsion. Last night it went differently.
This morning — 105.5kg. Down 0.3kg in two days. Small but real.
Today I ate between 12:30 and 1:30. Broccoli, onions, eggs and cheese all cooked together in a pan. Then a sponge jam pudding with custard.
Had a headache this afternoon. Possibly the pudding — big sugar hit after a clean meal. Something to watch. Not a failure, just data.
Out in the shops today. Checked my hand once or twice. I struggled in the evening at times and felt quite frustrated and agitated. I drank more water which helped. At one point around 21:00 i had a really great feeling of balance and calm in my whole body and my stomach felt drawn in which was only a few minutes but really good.
This one’s getting through.
— Think Fast
Think Fast 
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